December 2010
18 posts
can you imagine
if I told you I love you
and I do
oh god the shock waves would never end
but maybe it’d be nice
or not. we’re good friends
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You don’t know what love is Bukowski said I’m 51 years old look at me I’m in love with this young broad I got it bad but she’s hung up too so it’s all right man that’s the way it should be I get in their blood and they can’t get me out They try everything to get away from me but they…
life
gdmf
c is all “no srsness” a is all “baby I<3u” to c. c is all “oh fuck let’s date”
r (me) is all “hi babe” to n but kind of wishing it was c. but not only does r have n, she can not have c.
I would be content to sit here forever, thinking nothing, feeling nothing but the warmth of the sun and the peace of the wind here in the grass of a public park
dates one through four
one: bonfire at his house
two: lake mirror/the movies (the tourist) :)
three: bowling/mini golf at FFC :D
four: ice skating :)
rant
two people:
girl one.
-good grades, AP, leadership classes
-active in her church life
-cute boyfriend, she was his first kiss
girl two.
-getting some D’s in her AP classes, arty classes
-hates church, her parents, and sibilings
-makes it “around”, grade’s slut/easy
girl one.
-gossips endlessly about girl two
-frigid bitch with her boyfriend because...
ohmigod
summer. baby come back. :(
warmness please
6.
30 thangs
1. I don’t wear thongs (yet)
2. I hate bra and jeans shopping
3. I always capitalize “I”
4. I used to think I was mentally retarded
5. I’m quite smart (according to PSAT and PLAN)
6. five exes
7. blue is my favorite color
8. hulk. lunchbox.
9. even though I have ^ I hardly eat lunch (or breakfast) anymore
10. I like talking to boys better than girls...
“I like your Christ, I do not like your Christians. Your Christians are so unlike...”
– Mohandas Gandhi
3.
views on drugs and alcohol
k.
never done drugs
besides drinking more than the recommended amount of cough syrup
even though I am accused of being a pot head ALL THE TIME
though maybe, one day…on a foggy day
and last night, I had my first sip of pinot grigio. tasted like SHYIT. couldn’t drink more than a sip. had to wash my mouth out with some capri sun
but if you do such things
...
2.
in ten years?
I’ll be 25, it’ll be 2020
probably be killing ligers somewhere
or getting my double major in languages/computer science like fuck yeah
^all that so I can be recruited in the CIA
yeah, I’m going to start taking school seriously
HAHAHA
1.
lol, funny story
might be dating, might be in mutual like
IDFK
please tell me
1. we go on dates
2. met parents
3. kissed
4. his friends: “aww nicky’s girlfriend” at me
5. we both like each other fo’ sho’
date
2nd date with Mr. Taylor
planned for lake mirror, but it was damp out so we went to lakeside
I was 1/2 an hour late because of dad buying bikes for the boys
so I get to bam
1. couldn’t find him
so we walk around
2. walked the wrong way
then we go to the movies
3. I stand there shivering in my white shirt, blue bra visible, like a ho
he suggests the tourist
4. I make no move to buy...
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I really hate brushing my hair
so I don’t do it often
but then my hair looks like shit
but if i DO brush, it’s all pretty barbie straight blonde and I get compliments all day long
decisions decisions
at least this is the hardest one I have <3